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Registered Member #643
Joined: Tue Apr 10 2007, 04:44PMPosts: 1921 |
Knight your gunna do great things. Just hunker down and concentrate on school. Hope all goes well and we will be waiting for you when you come back. | ||
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Boodz
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Joined: Tue Jan 02 2007, 11:41PMPosts: 1085 |
Good luck amego, I love you. Booty sex orgy when you come back. | ||
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| Cookie Monster |
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Registered Member #770
Joined: Tue Jul 03 2007, 03:16PMPosts: 696 |
Have a nice time . | ||
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FT Classic Op
Registered Member #39
Joined: Fri Dec 02 2005, 10:30PMPosts: 1545 |
Hang in there, Knight. I'll send you a private message soon. | ||
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Jesus not HeyZeus
Registered Member #370
Joined: Mon Jul 31 2006, 03:49AMPosts: 332 |
Hey knight man I just want you to know that if you need to talk man I'm here...I hope that you don't commit suicide, you are such an integral part of this community and we all know the great things that you are capable of doing if you just hang in there and get the help that you need man. Like I said if you need to talk to anybody you got my s/n just gimme a shout I'm around all the time. Later man much love Jesus |
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Sir
Registered Member #457
Joined: Tue Oct 10 2006, 01:13PMPosts: 2628 |
Hey man... what can I say? I hope you're not serious, I hope this is some sick April Fool's joke man... cmon... fuck dude... You recruited me. I've noticed your change perhaps more than others, I remember the fun guy you used to be and I see a different person now. Can I ask you a 100% serious question? If I bought you a book and sent it to you, would you read it? |
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| ABadNewsBear |
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Registered Member #611
Joined: Wed Mar 21 2007, 08:35PMPosts: 219 |
Take care. | ||
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| Rusty |
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FTS Server Op
Registered Member #159
Joined: Wed Mar 01 2006, 06:33PMPosts: 2682 |
Hey yo. Just hang in there. My senior year of HS was a shit show to the point where I stopped going for a few weeks. If you talk to your school councilor about shit, maybe they'd be willing to talk to your teachers to give you a break. Everyone understands that life can suck. Just take care of yourself man, and when you get back,w e secks it up, because those pictures you posted make me want to make sexy time. |
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| Knightrider |
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Meteor 2016
Registered Member #316
Joined: Mon Jun 26 2006, 09:14PMPosts: 3503 |
Thanks everyone, I guess I can take the time to really outline and respond to some of your answers. I'm flattered to say the least, but I really appreciate the responses I have got. However, like I said, I can't control myself anymore. Glitch, I do not have a girlfriend. I have been talking to a girl for a while, and she lead me on, and last night capped things off. I am done with her, and that was the last thing to set me off good. I'm not doing one bit better today, and in fact, I feel even worse. But uh, let me go through everyone's response one at a time. I am suffering from depression from every aspect possible in my life, whether it is from my past, and today. I took everyone's advice for granted, which seemed to be similar. It was putting everything into the 'big picture' and how things would be positive for me. Well, just when it seemed like everything was positive, there was always a negative consequence, and to be honest, there has never been a positive outcome for ANYTHING I have tried. My conclusion I have came to is there is no happy ending to life. Humans inevitably die. You get old, you die. Sometimes if you're lucky, you die young. My life, that's not the case. Unfortunately, I'm still standing and breathing. I'm well aware that other people have life much worse than I do, but at least SOME of their lives improve. I have had nothing. Since you all probably are dying to know what ticked me off in the first place, I guess I'll just tell you everything. I have an abusive father whom I have not seen since I was 7 years old. My mom left us when I was about 4 years old because he would wake her constantly at night to wash clothes or do plain work in his drunkened state. We weren't rich, we were on welfare, and most of the money that we did get went to his beer. Anyways, when he was drunk he would beat our asses for the hell of it or his enjoyment. His idea of 'obedience' was beating the shit out of us until we passed out, putting welts on our backs, etc.,, Anyways, some nights I would wake up, maybe 3 a.m or 4 a.m. He would be drunk, as usual. I looked through a small hole in my floor and watched him grab my mom by her hair and slam her face off of a concrete wall. No remorse, nothing. And to make things even better, after my mom left it didn't help that he ran out of things to fuck for the hell of it. So, why not resort to my two sisters who were scared to death of him? One day when I was 7 years old, my oldest sister wised up and said something about it. So I went to foster care for a few years. Being deprived of your mother and having 30 minutes every 2 weeks to see her is nothing you want to have when you're a child. Needless to say, I was home schooled up until third grade. I had no social development because I had no friends. So, in a sense, I am socially retarded. And since people were not mature enough to show compassion for other people, I was picked on until I was in my second year of eighth grade. That's when my adolescence got to me, and my depression really started to come onto me. There I was, ready to kill myself, until I went to a youth group and met a bunch of friends who at the time were very caring. I met the youth leader who I consider my brother to this day. I went there for about 2 years until he left to pursue a new career. So, I guess as I grew up I got to be one attractive S.O.B. I started to date, and for a while it seemed like my meaningless life was heading uphill for a little while. Just when I thought things were going so swell, BAM. The shit hits the fan. People start dying around me. I lose my best friend to an 'accidental shooting'. People change. Your friends grow up, and change for the worst. Suddenly they aren't the people you thought they were. And that's the story of my life. I can't trust anyone. I am the nicest person in the world and I get shit thrown in my face. No more. And here I am now. Look at what I have become. I'm a fucking mess. I have no idea how to control myself. I have nobody to turn to but my own conscience. Everyone's advice is the fucking same to me. I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. I can't even afford a car for myself. Despite this is coincidentally close to April Fools Day, this is no joke. This is my life. And it's time to realize whether I am worth a damn, or whether I deserve to be six feet under. |
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Sir
Registered Member #457
Joined: Tue Oct 10 2006, 01:13PM Posts: 2628 |
My suggestion to the people reading this is to not post advice unless you know what the fuck you're talking about. More harm than good can come from this. Knight, send me your mailing address and answer this question honestly. If I buy you a book, will you read it? |
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